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I'm tired. Tired of everything. Tired of being me, tired of being "special", tired of being unable to control the thoughts that come into my head. As much as I love the name of this blog, I feel I don't have a chance at being anything anymore. I can hardly take care of myself and I HATE myself for it. I see everything that is wrong with me, but want to be like someone else. I would love new teeth. You know, the white kind. And the ones without holes.
How did I allow mine to get into such bad shape? Because I have no self-worth. No matter what I've done to try and make myself look better, I just see no improvement. So I destroy everything and let everything go. If no one loved me before or after the little improvements, so I just gave up on taking care of myself.
All of this is just getting worse. What is the point anymore?

So, yeah, I'm sorry for not updating you guys (if there even is someone out there reading this). I just don't have much to talk about right now. I got my Pokemon SoulSilver version yesterday in the mail. It came with a pretty little Lugia figurine which I love! I love the packaging for both the figurine AND the game. They're both so shiny!
My mom has been in VA for the past week helping my bro pack up his stuff so he can move down here, but they started coming home yesterday and they'll be home later on today.
I'm just so bored... I'll probably play Pokemon later on... Comment if you want my Pal Pad code (for trading. I am not at a high level yet. Highest lvl pokemon is my Cyndaquil and that hasn't even reached lvl 20 yet).

Its been a while, huh? Yeah, well, I made it to Florida in one piece. My room is pretty much unpacked and I LOVE IT HERE! PERFECT temperature here in the winter!

The main reason I'm posting this is cuz I found out that I DO have a good amount of money saved up in my other bank account. I'm talking ENOUGH TO ALMOST BUY MY DOLL!!! Maybe $100 more and I'll be set! From what I can tell, I could easily get that $100 from selling a hard drive I got at college. I don't have the hard drive in my possesion right now though. Its back in Virginia, but my mom has someone who will help us by transporting a few things down here, so it should come pretty soon. I just hope it is a large enough drive that it is worth $100. Until I get it though, I won't know its worth. So I'll probably be getting my doll sometime in the next few months (maybe 2-5 months. I'm not sure). I should really start to look for the body and head and stuff for it then. But first, I must sleep. I love you guys! Peace out!

Yeah, it's been a while since I last posted a blog here, so I might as well update you guys. First up, we're all packed and ready to go to Florida and we leave in less than 12 hours. We couldn't fit ALL of our stuff in the truck, so we're leaving several bins and boxes of stuff behind (including my mattress and boxspring). Hopefully, my mom will buy me a NEW set instead of buying some mix match set from some lame garage sale.

Some sad news I have is that my beloved baby has been put to sleep. I speak of my dog, but he's always been my baby. I've had him longer than I've had my best friend. We didn't know when he was born because he was a stray. We saved him from the animal shelter because he would've been put down at barely two years old. But God bless him, he's made it through some tough shit. No matter what happened to him or what he did, I still loved him. I would kill to have HIM as a pet again. Every detail about him was beautiful. The white tips of his gray paws and the big white patch of fur going up his chest all the way up to his beard. His meltingly gorgeous eyes and fuzzy warmness of his velvety floppy ears. How if you blew in his ear, he'd shake his head and look even more adorable. He was spoiled so much; He got to sleep on everyone's beds and we'd always slip him some of our meals. He didn't know many tricks, but when he was younger and stronger, he'd be able to sit up on his hind legs and beg and be the most adorable thing.

I have to end this blog short because I'm starting to cry again. Dammit Wooly, you're supposed to make me happy! >:O

Except that now I'm addicted to The Big Bang Theory (the TV show). Who ever came up with the whole show's theme is a GENIUS!! I can't get enough of Sheldon and his crazy ramblings and inability to understand jokes and sarcasm and Howard's hilarious woman-chasing ways! I think I know who got me hooked on it too... Dan Schneider, the guy who created most of the hit Nickelodeon shows like The Amanda Show, All That, Drake & Josh, iCarly, and several other shows. He talked about it a couple times on twitter and his blogger, so I decided to check it out. I had seen an episode previous to knowing his connection to the show and I thought it was pretty freaking awesome! This show is making me love dorks even more <3. Well, that's all for now you guys. I'm sorry I didn't have more to share!

While on my usual daily message checking rounds online, I went to Yahoo to check my e-mails. I usually check the different headlines before checking my e-mail and today, one of them caught my eye. "Double standard for shirtless actors? Underage and Overexposed" the headline read. I clicked on to read about Miley Cyrus and Taylor Lautner having two completely different experiences when public images of them not wearing shirts came out. I am somewhat appalled by the reaction of the media. The article mentions how when Miley showed off her back in a photoshoot for Vanity Fair, she got negative reviews and many people felt it was wrong for such a young actor to be doing photoshoots where one of the only things covering her was a silk sheet. Then the article talks about how Taylor is going to be shirtless for most of the New Moon movie and how it seems sexual that he isn't wearing a shirt for the movie. I have a full protest how it ISN'T purposefully sexualized for Taylor. None of the following is based on who I like or don't like.

It isn't supposed to be sexual because of the following reasons:

A) He's a "werewolf" (shape shifter) and whenever he changes, he grows bigger, causing the clothes he is currently wearing to rip to shreds and pretty much pointless. It would be unrealistic for a werewolf shape shifter to transform and still be wearing pants (because when the shape shifters transform, they change into giant wolves, not half man half wolf creatures). Plus, its mentioned in the book that it is a hassle to the shape shifters to carry a whole wardrobe with them while in their wolf form. They tie what is necessary to one of their legs (a pair of shorts or pants and maybe some underwear or whatever) so it is easiest to carry one piece of clothing rather than 2 or 3 (shirt, underwear, and pants). So should be allowed for him to be shirtless in this sense.

B) He is 17 years old! He is two years older than Miley was when she did her photoshoot. He is more of a man than Miley was a woman in her photoshoot. It is more necessary for him to go shirtless in this movie than it is for Miley to be doing sexy photoshoots.

C) Taylor has more to show off than Miley. He worked hard and did what he had to do to get his part of Jacob back for New Moon. Miley is hardly a woman and is only doing the photoshoots because she's told to. She probably didn't work out and work hard just to have her picture taken.

D) Talyor is a GUY! It is more culturally acceptable for guys to go shirtless than for women. Just because a guy is shirtless, doesn't mean he is trying to be sexy.

Have I made my point yet? There is a HUGE difference between these two different actors and why they are topless. Before anybody tries to bite my head off, let me say that I know that Taylor has done shirtless photoshoots. I don't really have much of an opinion on that, considering it is okay for guys to be photographed without a shirt on. One last thing I'll mention is that in the Yahoo article, the following is said:

Interestingly, the biggest critic of these pervasive images seems to be Taylor himself, who said this week he hopes never to take his shirt off in a movie again, saying, "It's so uncomfortable knowing that so many people are seeing pictures of me shirtless... It's weird. It's kind of embarrassing."

So, it is pretty much up to choice. What do all you guys think? What are your opinions on the whole matter?
Full article is here.

Well, this evening I went to the Drake Bell Street Team chat to see if I could help any. I offered a couple suggestions, requesting twitter updates to come more often (whether they are repeats or not) and a suggestion for a blogger site for them. I also offered to help run it for them. Its not like I have anything better to do... *coughcough*packing*cough*. I am already up late enough, so I'll call it a night here at 4:30 in the morning. I really need to get back to my regular sleep schedule...